They see me.
I know it. I feel it.
I'm worried. It's frightening to be followed.
By someone else who sees these things. Someone else who knows the fear.
The rims of my eyes hurt. I've been watching too long. Awake too long.
I need to protect myself from them! They must know by now. I'm not as clever as I thought I was.
How could they know? No one, but me...
I hate it so much. So I did what I did! I did what I wanted to. As anyone would expect. It's not my fault.
But they can tell, can't they.
I need to pay attention.
I hope my neighbors don't stare.
I hope my father doesn't laugh.
They're all so angry at me, and I deserve it.
I don't want to be this alone! This isn't fair! I'm not the first and I won't be the last! It's natural!
Heart's beating too fast.
Too fast.
Too fast.
I need to calm down. I need a little more. Nothing bad has happened yet. I must be...
Overreacting.
Unless.
Unless this is a ploy.
Unless they want me to think they don't know.Caught red-handed, they'll say.
I won't drop my guard.
I won't be tricked! I cannot be! For that, I'm sure I am too clever.
I know they're still coming. I know they know. I just need the comfort.
No. This can't be real.
Oh god it is.
It is.
Please.
I have to.
Stop.
